“I cried the whole week. I was a mess. That was the day I fell to my knees and cried. I literally had to call my mother to come. It was the most special day. I got to say everything to everyone here and everyone who will watch it that I wanted to say, but you can’t think of the words, and he wrote them.”
Even though he isn’t with her physically anymore since he tragically passed away last summer, Cory continues to affect Lea’s life in many ways and she continues to remember the great times and conversations they had together.
The Glee star opened up about their relationship and revealed:
“I only have happy memories of Cory. He was not his addiction—unfortunately, it won. But that wasn’t who he was. Cory made me feel like a queen every day. From the minute he said, ‘I’m your boyfriend,’ I loved every day, and I thank him for being the best boyfriend and making me feel so beautiful.”
Lea went on to explain the meaning behind releasing Louder on March 4th and how the death of Cory influenced the direction of her album:
“Just think about it: we’re going to ‘March fo(u)rth.’ We’re going to march forth like a cannonball. I try my best to march forth and live my life as best as I can for me. I also feel an incredible, happy responsibility to keep the memory and light of [Cory, who] was the most amazing person. I’m so happy to make it my journey now to continue on and live my life as best as I can.
I set out to make a really pop-heavy album that was fun and empowering—I love Katy Perry and Kelly Clarkson! But then I found myself picking and writing these songs that were very emotional and dramatic. Louder has songs that express extreme love and some pain. I look at it and think, That was my year. I didn’t record any songs that I didn’t completely relate to.”
Lea has been busily working on her solo album, but that doesn’t mean she’s forgetting those who have been there for here through the dark times.
“[The Glee cast] is the greatest group of people I have ever met in my entire life! We all lost Cory. I didn’t think for one minute that being away from them was what I wanted. Being on the set of Glee is no more difficult than being at home and finding [Cory's] slippers under the bed. We had a life and a job together—it goes with you everywhere you go. You can’t get away from grief. So I might as well be surrounded by the people I love and get to lean on them.”
Surrounding yourself with close friends and the same people who also lost someone in their life definitely helps the grieving process.
Lea Michele is ready to really open up about intimate conversations she had with Cory Monteith before his tragic passing – giving us a real window into their love.
In the new issue of Glamour UK , the Glee starlet is revealing her formerfuture plans with her co-star, including growing old together and having a big family:
“We talked about a lot of things. We talked about children and what we would look like when we grew old and who would be fat and how we would stay thin. We talked about where we wanted to go and what we wanted to do. We were done. We were it. When you’re at that place in your life with someone, you talk about everything. But today I feel like I was given the best part of Cory and I’m thankful for that.”
And even though she’s not ready right now, Lea does realize she’ll need to reenter the dating scene, sooner or later, but it will be on her own time and at a pace she’s comfortable with:
“I’ve only ever had serious relationships so it’s an adjustment putting myself back into a place of being alone. And I was under a Cory Monteith spell…it’ll take time to readjust my mind and I’m really not wanting to do that right now. I feel like it’s so important to make sure that I’m 100% OK before I can get into a relationship. But people have to understand that I can’t be alone forever. Cory wouldn’t want that.”
She’s so strong, isn’t she?!
Miz Michele has so many things to look forward to in life, including an exciting career in both acting and music – so we’re happy she’s grieving and processing openly.